i hate messing up. i hate making friends upset and mad. i hate not having any friends in the first place. i hate not knowing how to explain myself or to express myself. and i hate not having anyone to talk to about the things i want to talk about the most. i just wish life could be perfect but it never is. and i wish people could know how i truly feel. things like this just make me want to sleep forever. all i want to say is that im sorry and that i know i messed up and would take it back if i could.








